Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Monday, April 27, 2009
In Memory of our Sweet Babies
On Thursday, April 23rd at Centennial Park in Woodward Ok, our sweet babies were remembered. Kari Custar and her two kids, Brynn and Dathan, released balloons in their memory. It's comforting knowing that our angels are still on the minds and hearts of others. It's easy to feel that they have been forgotten. They were never seen by the world except by me and now by our Gracious God.
Mommy and Daddy love you and miss you every day. We finally have a picture in the hall to remember both of you by. It's not much to others but means the world to us. We tell your big brother about you and pray for the day you will all get to play together. But sweet babies there is something on my mind, something laying heavily on my heart, it sometimes takes the breath from me. Mommy and Daddy want another baby. Not to replace either one of you but because of the joy the two of you and your brother have brought to our lives. I have to know that you're ok with that. I pray that God will give me peace if He does indeed bless us with another baby. Mommy loves you both!
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
B: Bestfriends? Tyrel of course. Kara and Dana. And I can't forget my mom and sis.
C: Cake or Pie? I lile both but prefer pecan pie!
D: Day of Choice? I love Sundays. I love worshiping the Lord with my family and church family. The day brings me hope and peace.
E: Essiential Item? Cell Phone
F: Favorite Color? Anything bright but black is slimming.
G: Gummy Worms or Bears? With Tish on this one. ONLY Haribo Gummy Bears will do.
H: Hometown? This drives Ty nuts but I will always claim San Antonio as my hometown even though I moved away when I was small. I will always be a TEXAN but NOT a longhorn fan!!!
I: Indulgence? Chic-fil-a unless I am pregnant then it deep fried burritos. Hoping I start to crave those soon!
J: January or July? July was the month my hubs was born so it will always be special to me!
K: Kiddos? Yep 3. Graydon is 2yrs, our Angel baby went to be with Lord on March 14th, 2008. And our Glory baby went to be with the Lord on January 14th, 2009.
L: Life isn't complete without? Ty and my babies. The grace that God has given me. Thank you Lord!
M: Marriage Date? February 12th, 2005
N: Number of bro's and sis'? One of each and love them both!
O: Oranges or Apples? oranges and green apples
P: Phobias? Birds and bugs that fly and crunch when you step on them.
Q: Quote? When life knocks you on your knees, you're in the perfect position to pray. Keep on keepin' on.
R: Reason to Smile? Waking up in the morning to my amazing family. Being a mom and a wife to the best children and hubby. Thank you Lord!
S: Season? I love fall.
T: Tag 5 peeps? Mom, Janice, Sally, Becky, Kara
U: Unknown fact? I get cranky when the wind blows my hair in my face!!! I am living in the wrong part of the country.
V: Vegetable? Emily's green bean bundles and Tish's garlic green beans that Scott doesn't like.
W: Worst Habit? I am a worry wart and like to be right all the time.
X: X-Ray or Ultrasound? Well I have had my fair share of ultrasounds and I think only 1 xray. I will say ultrasound.
Y:Your fave food? Deer steak, and meat smoked on the smoker
Z: Zodiac Sign? Virgo, thats where I get the need to always be right.
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
These questions have been tormenting me for the past 2 weeks. So many people around me, the ones I love so dearly, are hurting inside. A pain that as a mother losing 2 children, I have not even felt. The weird thing is these people are christians who love the Lord. If they have the light of the Lord IN them why are they haunted by the darkness AROUND them. Don't tell me they need more prayer in their lives because I and others have been on our knees lifting them up. I have witnessed them on their knees literally crying out just to be left in the darkness again. (Don't get me wrong I am a true believer in prayer and will continue to pray for these individuals) I am just struggling with what to say to these people, whom I would take all their pain if I could. All I can say is that there is HOPE in the Lord!
When you think all hope is gone and you're going to be stuck in this pit of despair the Lord says, "Never will I leave you nor forsake you" Hebrews 13:5b. Remember the promise the Lord gives, "Come to me, all you that are weary and are carrying heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me; for I am gentle and humble in heart and you will find rest for your souls." Matthew 11:28-29.
I know you guys are tired and are ready to give up but don't. Let your weary souls find rest in the Lord. The darkness around you is of the world and only God can shine His light on it. He will bring you out of the darkness and into His light, in His time, not yours. Steadfast one day at a time.
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Thursday, April 9, 2009
Friday, April 3, 2009
Good News: Ty is on meds that will help with his attempt at quitting smoking for good. He should see some results within 2 weeks, noticable results in a month, but may have to take meds for up to 6 months. At least we have a time frame!
Bad News: Ty's hand does not look good. Doc Evans changed his antibiotic to Bactrim, he worries about Staph. Ty has to clean it with peroxide and our favorite nurse Sally must check it on Wednesday and call the doc with her opinion. (Doc Evans gave you the job Sal) If Sally thinks it looks good then she can remove the stitches. Doc Evans told Ty that he probably won't get complete movement back in his hand. Ty is having a hard time with that. So hunting might be interesting.
Plans for the Future: We met with the doc to talk to him about our 2 previous miscarriages, our concerns with getting pregnant again and so on. Evans doesn't seem to think that there is a major problem right now, considering we have one healthy little boy. Since both miscarriages were early on in pregnancy and no d&c were performed, there is no concern for scar tissue. I have zero medical history that would compromise a pregnancy so the field has been narrowed down. His only concern is that they were so close together being only 10mths apart. He has a plan though. I must start taking Tandem (prenatal vit), calcium 500mg, and a baby aspirin everyday. The need for prenate vitamins are obvious, the calcium I'm not quite sure about. But the baby aspirin is interesting. In some cases, miscarriage can be caused by blood clots. Clots in the mothers blood cuts off supply to the baby, resulting in miscarriage. I don't have a history of blood clots but it is really the only step we can take at this time. When and if we find out we are pregnant, we are supposed to contact Doc Evans and he will start running tests the next day!