Glory Baby

As most of you know by now, we lost our baby on Wednesday the 14th. What a hard and challenging week it's been. I can't even begin to describe the pain and grief that I am feeling. Just when I got to the point where I wasn't sad everyday from the first miscarriage, we found out we were pregnant. Don't get me wrong, we were trying and praying for another child. At first we were hesitant about telling people but figured it was better for people to know and pray instead of us sitting around and worrying about this pregnancy. So for 8 weeks we prayed along with many of you. I remember praying every night that this baby would be healthy. I truely wasn't scared. I had complete faith that God had heard all our prayers and this baby would be born healthy. But the day came when I knew that wouldn't be the case. I cried out to Jesus on the way to the Drs. office, Please Lord don't take my baby! Selfish I know but I couldn't stand to send another baby to heaven without seeing or holding it first. I think God knew that and He gave me that chance to hold my baby. Not quite the circumstances I was hoping for though. I keep thinking that each day will get easier but its not. Not yet anyway. I updated my playlist with songs that I listen to to help me cope. Sometimes I believe it but other times the fact that God took two babies from me over-shadows my faith in Him. If I can ask, please pray for my family as we continue to say goodbye to babies we never knew but love dearly.